Creer

Because I am thinking about Finance. How silly right? But I’m torn. I know the decision should be made by myself, for myself and with the guidance of God’s hand, but praying about it now seems hurried and begging and I hate my prayer to be that way. I realize that without finance, my senior year is seemingly easy. I don’t want to be perceived as taking the easy way out by not doing it if I can do it but maybe the problem lies in name of this blog and that is that I don’t know if I believe I could make it all work. I could make the appropriate phone calls and make a business communications course work for me if I really tried, I’m sure—but to what end? Do I want the minor or don’t I? Do I really think the minor will add to my marketability? Hard question to answer when I don’t know what I want to do with my life. Of course that phrasing is just wrong and people shouldn’t use it like they do. Its more like I don’t know what type of job I want to apply for and hopefully get upon or before graduation. I am interested—dont get me wrong. I have so much to learn in that realm of business and I want to learn it and from whom better than the professors our department has to offer? It just has to be for the right reasons. My curiosity is not all that’s important. My heart and my time have to be there too. This is probably a lot of over-thinking for a couple little classes—but they are big classes, and they have to fit into the puzzle of my life this upcoming year, or not.

I just want my brain to shut down for the night. I want to sleep.